Life has a way of speeding by whether you are living it or not. Considering the small amount of time we have, it is interesting how often people spend it on meaningless endeavors.
Everyone usually wants to feel loved, happy, needed, or even just good. So why do we spend life on those things that result in the opposite of that? I have just awakened from a ten or more year nap from life. I am breathing for the fist time, seeing with my own eyes, feeling things that are real and thinking my own thoughts. The prospects are dizzying, so now what? Do I go back to my farm on facebook and continue my life, farming virtual vegetables for mock money that I spend on a fictitious house with artificial decorations? What makes that any less real then the physical job that I go to every weekday? I get up early in the morning, sometimes, barely seeing my husband as we go through the morning ritual of "getting ready for work." Next, we hop into our environmentally damaging metal box to a place we are not all that thrilled to go, to do a job well and accurately so we can earn money to buy a better metal box to drive to work in and better clothes to wear to work and food that we can eat while we are working?
I am slowly changing that about myself. I still have to go to work, most everyone does, but I can still control how I feel about it, I can see more if I choose to, feel more, live ......... well, more. As I continue to write, I will explain what I mean. I have had to take back my life more than once in the few years I have walked this earth. Lamentably, the right to be who you are or, to find out who you are, can be taken from you. In the beginning of my life, this happened to me. I seized it back! Then, later, I freely gave away my choices, deciding instead, to float along in an aimless ebb and flow that became my life.
I am me again and fully intend on staying that way! Today, I feel good, loved, happy and needed.
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